I Don't Know
It’s almost 2 AM, and I can’t sleep. I’m watching a rabbi on YouTube–taking a break from Christianity. Judaism brings me much more comfort, mostly because it seems more logical and there’s no threat of eternal torment. It’s not a sin to be gay, and the prohibited actions vary according to rabbinical interpretation. Even the most Orthodox view claims the punishment for homosexual activity is to be reincarnated as a barren female who is unable to give birth without great merit. I’m fine with that, although since I’m celebate now, I probably have nothing to worry about according to them. I recently asked Chabad–an Orthodox movement–about whether or not it’s okay to cuddle with a guy, and I’m waiting on a response. I hope it is. I mean, I’m pretty sure King David and Jonathan did more than cuddle, according to the account of their relationship in Samuel. Oh, I also realized again that the resonance feeling I get isn’t the Spirit of Truth after it “told” me that my boyfriend had died when